Still here ...

Yep, I've been mightily neglecting my blog yet again, time to get serious and start writing again.

I went to the psych last week and talked through some more issues. Last Friday work had a function at North Sydney bowling club. I didn't want to go, for two reasons. North Sydney was further than I had driven before, and I didn't want to face Friday afternoon traffic. But I didn't want to not do it (I think that double negative works), as then it would be another thing that I was afraid of that I'd avoided. When you start on the avoidance trail it can be a very quick downward spiral. I sometimes think I'm just a few steps from being a full fledged agoraphobic, in a cage of my own making.

So, I went. Success! The trip there was ok, until I got to the Gore Hill freeway. Never been on a freeway by myself before. Was only on it for a little while, managed to get off at the wrong exit, but I did it. Tick! Proceeded to get hideously lost in North Sydney, which seems to be a suburb made up of no right turns. Finally got to the function, another tick in the box for me!

I think I did ok at the function, sometimes socially I'm not so great. And when I play sport (we played lawn bowls in teams) I tend to get a bit vocal, cheering people on etc. Sometimes I worry that I'm too loud, that I've made a fool of myself. I guess all I can do is be myself.

Drive home was good, didn't get lost, and traffic wasn't bad either.

So sum total is I am proud that I did it! Nice to have personal best for distance travelled by myself too.